Dear Readers,
Firstly I love you all, you always make my day better with your lovely comments on my posts and I’m sorry I’ve been so bad at posting. I could list the excuses but none are good enough. Hope you enjoy this post, and tell me what you think
Yours,
Shamma
I couldn’t stop thinking of all the scenarios I would have to face when I got home and had to face my brother Faisal. I knew it was because he cared about me but at the same time it was so frustrating that he couldn’t just “trust me”. Thankfully Maha was sitting next to me, joking and trying to cheer me up.
“If your brother is rude enough to snoop in your conversations, I can send him a few of my thoughts right now” she said showing me a message on her phone.
I couldn’t stop laughing, I was imaging Faisal’s face if he read what she was typing.
“Seriously Maha, I‘ll be getting enough crap from him as it is.”
“I know 7beebty it’s just so annoying” She said giving me a mini-hug.
Mayed didn’t show up to class, which made my stomach ache even more, I needed to see him. I needed to feel reassured by him, I needed to know what he wanted to talk about, and I NEEDED him.
I went straight home after my classes were done, went up to my room and lay on my bed. My mother came into my room and sat next to me on my bed.
“Latifa ana shalait el phone 3an u5ooch” she said, putting it next to my hand.
“Mashkoora umaya” I said, but I couldn’t bring myself to look at her, I felt the tears welling up in my eyes. I hated Faisal for putting me in this situation, and the fact that he could put me in such a situation was even more annoying.
I waited till I knew he would be back from work and I went to his room, I stood in front of his door and knocked.
He opened the door with a surprised look on his face, I knew he didn’t expect me to face him, especially after my mum interfered but I had to deal with him.
“What is it Latifa?”
“Faisal I should be asking you that, before you believe what anyone has to say about me you should trust me, I’m your sister!”
He raises his hand as if to tell me to stop.
“5ala9 Latifa its over, I wont bring it up again ok?”
“La its not OK, you can’t just say such things, it might be over for you but it’s not over for me. I have to live with it! The fact that you would believe rumors about me is insulting”
“Laitifa, Mayed came to my office today, he told me he wants to propose to you. So I’m guessing those rumors weren’t based on nothing”
“What?!” I was stunned.
“I still didn’t tell mum or our brothers but I guess you should know before them, shu rayech Latifa?”
“Shu rayee? I don’t know I will have to think about it I guess” I felt so embarrassed now.
“Look I’m sorry I did that this morning but ma ar’6a 3alaich Latifa, I was so pissed that they would say that about you and I realized now that Sara is jealous of you because you’re the perfect sister and so respectable, and I hope you accept Mayed’s proposal he’s a great guy really.”
“Faisal, this conversation isn’t exactly what I was expecting”
He looked at me with a raised eyebrow.
“Stop fishing for more compliments” he said shooing me out of his room.
I ran to my room and picked up my phone to check if Mayed had sent me something, but he didn’t.
This was going to drive me crazy, I started a conversation:
L: Mayed?!
M: Halla
L: WTH did u do?
M: Did your brother talk to you?
L:Yes he did, why didn’t you say anything?
M: I don’t want to have this conversation like this, I need to see your face.
I threw the phone on the bed after that, I didn’t know what to say. I was shocked, yes I had feelings for him I couldn’t deny that but this was too fast, too sudden, too EVERYTHING.
I called Maha, but she just started screaming with excitement, I had to hang up. I went downstairs but my mother kept on shooting me sly glances, smiling and tearing up, it just drove me crazier.
I went out and sat on the swing, the cool breeze soothing my flushed face. I started swinging, it reminded me of my childhood when I used to swing to hard and wish I could let go and just fly away.
I closed my eyes and imagined what it would be like to be that free, when I opened them I could see someone standing in front of me, when I realized who it was, I let go but I was swinging so fast I flew out of the swing and landed at his feet.
“Latifa are you ok?”
“Yes yes I’m fine” I said, more embarrassed than bruised. “What are you doing here?”
“I told you I needed to see you” he said, kneeling down next to me.
“Mayed!”
“Laitifa..I love you, I love everything about you, and will you marry me?”
I was blushing, flustered and sitting on our lawn, this was not how I expected this day to end but it was the perfect ending.
